At times, I feel that I miss you then I feel remorseful for breaking us apart but then again, I know that even if I tried so hard to gain back the feelings I previously had for you...it just wouldn't be the same and I don't want to be lying and neither do I want to torture you with my lies. I just want you to know that somehow, in one way or another...you have created a huge impact in my life. The changes that took place through the ups and downs we faced together will never ever be forgotten. 

Many might mistaken me for leaving you because you're in camp most of the time but they don't know my story neither are they in my shoes. I would urge you to not believe them but you have choices and its totally up to you to believe who. I wouldn't want to force you to change your perception of me and it has never been because of another party interfering. Please do not think otherwise, I beg.

Forgive me for all the times I've been rude, neglected you and not putting enough effort to make us work. I swear I did try but I got exhausted trying to fight these feelings that do not define me as who I am. It has been a long run and trust me when I say that I appreciate everything going on between us for these three years. Thank you Nasri, for all that you've done. Making me more happier than anyone else can possibly feel. You used to be a part of me but I just feel that we drifted, somehow. Forgive me for disappointing you and making you feel so insecure. I should have been truthful in the first place to avoid us drowning in this whirlpool of confusion that we are facing.

Let's just let time tell.

Take good care of yourself Nasri, I'm letting you go with a willing heart 

and I hope you will comprehend what I'm trying to convey here.

I still want the best for you in everything you do and I yearn to see you smile.

I will never forget you. Be happy baby xx

"kalau ada jodoh, kita bertemu lagi. Insya'allah"

After a long time...finally an opportunity to blog and you know what this means?!?! 

HELLO HOLIDAYS!
 I'm free from all of my projects, no more deadlines to meet and assessment is OVER.
God...that just feels so good to say. So good...

Even though its just a pathetic one month break, I solemnly declare that I deserve it. 

By all means I will appreciate every day, hour, minute and second of it.

So hey. 

In spite of the heavy workload I have from school, I still insisted to go clubbing with my best girl.
Besides, I wouldn't want to miss out on all the fun for her 19th birthday. Its only once a year so why not? 

Had a really late start to my Saturday. Heading out at only 830pm to Nasri's place since Nini and her bf were still getting ready. Its has been ages since I paid a visit to his place and I felt that it was really heart warming because his family including his grandparents greeted me kindly. Not to mention, Nasri was too thoughtful to whip me up a quick dinner since he could tell by my expression that I was starving. 

Maggi goreng with teh o by Nasri. Absolutely scrumptious! 

Will definitely miss this when he gets into ns. Sigh.

 While we were slacking, Arep borrowed Tinkerbell and tried to master the usage of the dslr.
 I think this picture below is a perfect shot of Nini and her happiness beyond words.

Thumbs up to Arep. Lol.

You'll be heading off to NS this coming Thursday. Time has really passed by so fast or should I say too fast? I'll have my say here. Nasri, I've long forgiven you of the wrongdoings that you've done and you've been such a great boyfriend to me for these 3 years. Don't think otherwise of that please I beg. I know that perhaps you might be super insecure when you're in camp but I'm a big girl now. I'll know how to take care of myself. I just hope that you'll stay healthy and I'll see you when you're out. We'll come out with something. Please don't expect too much coming from me, I'm just not mentally stable and I do not wish to hurt you with the choices that I make.

Thank you for sacrificing most of your time and money to go on dates with me.

I will never forget the moments that we've spent.

xx

 "God, if there is something you should take away from me, please I beg, let it not be her."

Happy 19th birthday baby girl!

All that I want to say is already written in the birthday card. 

I hope you liked the little gift I gave you.

Plus the little surprise we came up with.

Enjoy your day while it lasts, you know I'll always love you.

xx

I really love my best friend and I can't stay mad at her for long but truthfully,
I just super hate the fact that she always ditches us on the dance floor to entertain her other guy "friends".
She could possibly be missing out all the fun that we were experiencing!

But its alright...Oh well, we will all get used to Linsa's treatment when it comes to the dance floor.

Thank you girls for the night.

Till next time when we plan to go "all girls" again.

xx

(Nasri looks so cute from the back!)

Spent an hour or so in my dad's ward then I made up my mind to make a move since Baba looks fine and I did not want to waste my Saturday in the hospital. I'm really grateful that Nasri was waiting for me patiently at least I had someone to accompany me on my ride home.

......................

Reached our hometown around 6pm and Nasri came up with this crazy idea of clubbing.
 It was totally impromptu and we didn't really had the confidence that we would have fun since not many were willing to tag along.
I had to pester and irritate Nini until she agreed. Everything was in a rush.
It was insane.

Heading to Avatar for our first time!

What a wild night. Definitely can't forget my first experience at Avatar. Left quite a huge impression on me. Especially when I realized that clubbing is not really that exciting anymore.  xx

H e l l o

I've been super busy these days. Occupied with all of my projects deadlines and definitely working hard for a brighter future.
 Wow that sounded as though I am really that hardworking and putting all my endless energy for school -.-

So my Saturday was spent well with my boyfriend. Since our 2 years 11 months fell on a Monday, we decided to celebrate it earlier instead. Made his day extra special because I surprised him with a Fred Perry wallet and socks from Topman. Anything for a boy as faithful and loving as him. So thrilled that his face immediately lighted up when he unwrapped the presents. I should be called the sweetest girlfriend ever!

You can actually see how depressed I was with the different choices that was available.

Ahhh...Finally the food is here for us to savor.

Nasri was shocked with the amount of food he has to finish! 

Shitake soup with garlic bread.

The quality of the food was definitely satisfying and extremely appetizing.

Leaving a very good impression on Nasri.

He was too bloated to even stand up after the meal!

Glad that he enjoyed the meal.

Decided to catch Step Up Revolution after dinner.

I was contemplating at first because I promised to catch it with Nelly. 

But since it was too late to head to the Harry Potter Exhibition, we just went ahead with our plans.

It was my first time catching a movie at Marina Square and sadly the movie theatre is annoyingly small. 

But I enjoyed it, we were both enraptured by the dance moves! 

Tempting us to club next week!

Happy 2 years and 11months of loving you.

Thank you for everything. I mean it. Literally everything.

I feel so blessed to have someone like you right beside me.

You've always been so understanding, sticking with me through the ups and
downs in our relationship and always trying to help me in every way.

You are like the sun. Shinning in my life and I really hope that you are the love of my life. <3 p="p">

Thank God that we have such a strong will for this relationship.

I never want to leave you behind.

I know things change when you serve NS but I'll try my very best to be patient.

Let God determine our paths. 

Love you so much Nasri.

:')

Till here.

" Who says we can't put our differences aside and be close friends? "