Sometimes making decisions can be quite nerve racking. Its like you're trying to choose a different path but you can't even be sure if that path will lead you to a better life. They all say to leave it in the hands of God. But God can't really be doing everything for you right... It really takes me a long time to decide on what is the best for me. Its killing me and I swear the guilt is going to eat the fuck up of me soon. I don't want to lie and neither do I want to feel guilty. But its difficult if I am trying to prevent a certain someone from being hurt.

When you sense someone that you know, that is like a million times better than a person that you love, a godzillion thoughts will come running through your mind like water gushing out from a broken pipe. My mind is being twisted and tangled up like a vine in the woods. Its drastically stressful of me having to mope over this from time to time. I wish someone could hear me out. I wish someone could tell me what to do. But perhaps if I hang on too long, things will get worse. What if I decide to leave? Will that create a change?

But if you're worth the wait, the pain, the laughters, the smiles....

Then you're worth my everything.

I JUST WANT TO FEEL GOOD. THATS ALL.

Is that really so much to ask for?