I know. My blog looks so totally plain and boring.
I have no time to actually put pictures, music and make my blog look a lil' more lively.

Apart from the fact that i am already on talking terms with B again, i finally fulfilled my wish of visiting my granny's graveyard with my beloved cousin, Natasha. Left home at 3pm today, met her at lot one and ride on 975 straight to the malay cemetery. The whole situation was really weird because the bustop was located so far from the malay cemetery. Under the scorching hot sun we had to endure and walk till we reach there. It was a long way there and we had to pass by bangla houses. We bought a bouqet of flowers, more flowers and flowers and rose water. Next, we went to N-11 and had a real hard time finding granny's grave. Surrounding us were atleast more than 2,000 graveyards. At last, we gave up and prayed to god that we will find her grave and soon, a white marble grave caught my attention. I then remembered baba telling me that he spend $2,000 on making the graveyard look more inviting and neat. It does look expensive but simple. It shows how much baba-o still loves his mum.
Obviously duh.

Alhamdulilah, we found it! Pretty overjoyed but my first reaction was tears rolling down my cheeks. We said some verses from the Quran and begin to literally talk to Granny. We told her that we missed her and more. I kept on crying because its been long i visited her grave and pathetically, tasha was too busy with the heat and the ants biting her. While pouring water, she spilt some on my jeans. The flowers we bought, were all so pretty. Stayed for almost an hour and recite a few more verses and we both hugged the " batu nisan " i could not stop crying the whole time. Maybe i overreacted or really missed her much.

After that, head to lot one to have lunch at long john's. Overall, had a great time with Tasha.
Tasha wanted to shop but cannot make up her mind on what to buy so i bid her goodbye.
Then head to Ijat's place. Stapled cupboard horses with Nelly for our performance this Sunday. I can't wait to design my own horse tomorrow! Weehee. Okay good night.
" The things i do for love. everything.................."

My Fasri'Happy6 wasn't so happy after all.
I started my day with a terrible migraine.
I have to dragged my weak body to tuition.
I have to sit in my AIR-CONDITIONED tuition centre with a very terrible blocked nose.
After practicing some maths questions on vectors, my head became very worse off crazy.
I have to be independent and GO BACK HOME ON MY OWN with this freaking fcuking migraine.

The bus ride home made me feel as though i am on some roller coaster ride.
I went back home with a very long face and mama was like being so very worried but i could not care less and tuck myself in bed for a long and never ending nap.

I did not spend time with B and NO. Not because i was experiencing this bloody migraine.
He on the other hand was going through some unfortunate disaster which was way worse off than me. I mean, I could pathetically understand his whole situation and all but off hand, do i have to understand? I don't usually voice out my arguements with my boyfriend on my blog because some people are just oh-so-please and glad to know that we are on bad terms. But i think there is a need to, now.

CAN WE LESSEN THE TEXTINGS AND GET YOU ON THE PHONE?

I really miss my morning and late-night calls with you. Maybe you can't do it everyday but at least sometimes. I don't demand from you but I think this might ease our tension against each other a bit more. We always hang around with friends, we are not usually on our own.
At least at certain times, just the two of us with no one but us would be nice. Cos i really miss the times we both spend time together. Just both of us alone. I love you and Trust me, I am still glad we've come this far. I hope we can make it up for our happy6. Its so saddening. yikes.

And i should not have taken a few puffs, my condition deteriorated right after the puffs.