And it all begins...

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Hi I'm Farah Afiqah. It does not really matter how you choose to pronounce it. I'm 19.
Speak, think and live easy. Indecisive and gullible but I don't need anyone to make choices for me. What really matters is what I do with what I have. At times, I love to hear things that makes no sense at all. Its stress-free. Treat me right and I'll learn how to clique with you.
This is my blog, my say. Everything I express here, is purely from the bottom of my heart. Have fun reading! xoxo

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Sometimes making decisions can be quite nerve racking. Its like you're trying to choose a different path but you can't even be sure if that path will lead you to a better life. They all say to leave it in the hands of God. But God can't really be doing everything for you right... It really takes me a long time to decide on what is the best for me. Its killing me and I swear the guilt is going to eat the fuck up of me soon. I don't want to lie and neither do I want to feel guilty. But its difficult if I am trying to prevent a certain someone from being hurt.

When you sense someone that you know, that is like a million times better than a person that you love, a godzillion thoughts will come running through your mind like water gushing out from a broken pipe. My mind is being twisted and tangled up like a vine in the woods. Its drastically stressful of me having to mope over this from time to time. I wish someone could hear me out. I wish someone could tell me what to do. But perhaps if I hang on too long, things will get worse. What if I decide to leave? Will that create a change?

But if you're worth the wait, the pain, the laughters, the smiles....

Then you're worth my everything.

I JUST WANT TO FEEL GOOD. THATS ALL.

Is that really so much to ask for?